What happend?
What happend with all my motivations and dreams and achivements and this blog that was a way of helping myself to get to it? Well I'll guess I have been in a bad period where every things was just shitty, and I don't want to get to whiny and feel sorry for myself here. Not was this blog was meant to be.
So, now I'm in sweden for workholiday? Well my mother is away on holiday so someone has to be at the office and my boyfriend took some holiday to come with me so everyone is on holiday and I'm working. Even though it's not to much work today.
It's amazing how some fresh air and calm can change the life and how we feel. I was sleeping atleast 12hours in France everyday but here, even when I wanted to sleep more 9hours was the most I could sleep. My body is so much more awake, and I feel happy and living. To feel that I do something important have been a missing part these last months and to rest inside the apartment nearly brooke me down. I had hard time to get outside the dorr and sometimes I even went back in because I couldn't handle all the people. Here I don't give a shit. Actully the opposite. To talk and meet people actully makes me happy, and I want to be outside as most as possible.
I even see big difference in how my boyfriend handles things and how he behaves. He's much more calm and patient here. In Nice he gets irritated for nothing and he makes a fight out of nothing. He even smokes less here! Normally he smokes a packet of cigarettes every day, here he just finished his secound and we have been here for 6days. How amazing is that?
It might be because of the cold outside and he can't smoke inside. But still he smokes less, so I'm so happy about that.
I'm a really blessed persons these days and I wish that everyone would have this opportunity to relax and find the calm in themselves. The world would be a much better place I think if people could distress and just breath for a moment
